Am I Moving On?

Ever since I can remember, I've buried things deep down so I don't have to deal with them. So, I don't know how I will ever know if I'm actually dealing with this loss or if I am just burying and let it come out in short spurts. Cos I do cry, I do get angry. But I'm also still in shock. I guess I'll never know until a while down the road. Ugh.